For a while I have been thinking about the change that comes from trauma and not just about the change that has done damage but also the change that is positive and healing.

According to the dictionary “collateral damage” is a general term for deaths, injuries, or other damage inflicted on an unintended target. According to many writings on trauma after infidelity, the person who engages in extradyatic sex (EDS), often does not think about their partner and the long-term consequences of their behaviour. Although difficult to understand for the loyal partner, this behaviour of blocking out critical parts and justifying others is common among those who betray their spouse.

A blogger on WP recently  wrote about “collateral beauty”, which is the title of a film from 2016 with Will Smith. I have not seen the movie, but the title “collateral beauty” did something to me and I questioned whether there can be collateral beauty as well as collateral damage as a result of EDS (with many thanks to this Blogger).

The couples who make it through, no doubt as all of you are aware, go through a rough stage that varies from 1-4 years to longer depending on what damage was done and on the depth of work the spouse who engaged in EDS has done to repair the relationship.

I have met couples of which the loyal spouse told me that they are hopeful and positive as their partner has made permanent changes. They tell me that their partner’s past behaviour and the damage it has done to them and the family has opened the eyes of their spouse and that their spouse is becoming the person they want to be. They tell me that for the first time in their marriage they feel that their partner places them and the children on top of their priority list. They tell me that they see for the first time that their spouse is seeing the damage they have done to the marriage and that they are committed to do all that is needed to “make it right”. They also tell me that their spouse is not expecting miracles and knows that it is a long road and that patience is required before their partner can trust them again.

One woman told me that she does not want “the old partner” back, as she likes him more the way he is now, as prior to his betraying behaviour, he was not engaged in the family and did not place value on her needs. She told me that “he was always looking for something and obviously we were not enough for him”.

I think that people who have experienced the pain of betrayal and have worked it through might be able to see the “beauty” that came out of all the suffering. Some people have decided to move away from the relationship and invested their energy in a new life and they tell me that although hard in the beginning, they feel good about themselves. It is not so, that there is no longer pain, but they also see what they have gained. One of my dear friends started a business and felt that she could have never done this as she lacked the confidence during her marriage. She realised that her husband criticised her to such an extent that she did not grasp the opportunities that were offered to her. If he had not left her while engaging in selfish behaviours, she might have stayed in a marriage that smothered her creativity.

Others who found that enough goodness remained to stay in the marriage, might see beauty coming from the change that occurred as a result of the pain. The genuine change in the partner who wants to “make it right” and who becomes a committed partner and parent can be seen as a beautiful development. I am describing a spouse who is well aware of the pain they have caused and who never forgets this. This spouse understands that their partner has “bad memories and negative reminders” and this spouse helps their partner through those moments by confirming their deep remorse, their commitment and love. They do this as long as it is needed and this might be a long time. Although the betrayed spouse might initially see the damage the infidelity has done to them, I hope that they also see that there is hope for a different and better life.


11 thoughts on “POST 60: COLLATERAL BEAUTY

    1. That is great Kaye. I was waiting with writing this until I was ready to allow myself to see some beauty. Our paths do not linearly lead us to where we want to be, but we can try to see beauty when it is there, and enjoy it.
      Take care!

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  1. I agree that many find that this crisis point creates a pivotal moment to choose something better. For both parties. I have found it interesting to note during this journey that the relationships that survive and later thrive have been those where either one was in some way dissatisfied or feeling a lack. I didn’t. I felt loved and cherished. And I loved and cherished him. So much. I think you can only fully see the collateral beauty when things are better than they have ever been. Yes.the pain never disappears. But the changes in a disconnected partner act as a much needed salve to dress those wounds. Great post x.

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    1. Thank you. I understand what you mean. I think that even when the “disconnection” was there only when one partner engaged in EDS, and that partner expresses full remorse and does the work, the “beauty” or better said the positives can be seen when that partner re-connects and no longer has any interest to go outside the relationship. It means that a person who had become self-absorbed and egoistic, changes to the person who places spouse and family first.
      Thank you for your reply.

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  2. Excellent post, E. Thank you for reminding me that my OH is working really hard every day to be the person he always should have been (and for most part I mistakenly thought he was). He genuinely puts my needs first these days. I do see that he is a changed man. Long may that be the case.

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    1. That is beautiful Falling Ash. That he is becoming the man he really is and that you see his changes and that you both can celebrate a new future together.


  3. This is a great reminder that after we allow ourselves to feel the pain of betrayal, or mistreatment, we can then move forward and see how we can become stronger and wiser, and appreciate the things we have. It’s all a matter of perspective. Thanks for a great post.

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    1. Thank you for your feedback.
      It is a scary thing to Blog about relationship problems while also being in the profession. I thought long and hard about it, and felt that I had to be transparent up to a degree.
      It is about perspective and also gained wisdom, but the latter we have to seek (or allow to surface) and sometimes the pain takes over.
      Thanks a lot for your replies!

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